updates..


last week..

monday! first day of work! oh mans! woke up late.. mega shit! dad sent me to work! got stuck in the freaking traffic jam at bukit timah/clementi area.. went to work 30 mins late! omfg! bad start.. haiz.. then went for hepb booster jab with sahidah and hafiza.. super painful! the expression of pain after each of us came out was like priceless! hhaha.. but yea.. its was damn painful.. haiz.. hb results were good and in the normal range so yay.. but got one last blood test to check hepb antibodies level.. haiz.. due on 31 may! sian sian.. more pain coming my way.. hopefully the levels are above 100 if not have to go back for one more booster jab.. haiz..


dinnered with tracy.. then went to find kenny to get my pails back.. and we(tracy, kenny, joel, sylvia and myself) ended up at island creamery.. wahaha.. super farnie.. enjoyed myself! yay! thanx for the chocs trace! yummy!!


tuesday, after work, birthday dinner with poly besties! swenson's! thanx girls for the treat and the purple "underwear"! i will wear it well!! hehehe! love you girls! muackz!


wednesday, after work, met up with zarinah and sri babes! hehe! had dinner at xin wang! wahahaha!! awesome time man! then walk walk and window shopped at 313.. and we went to 'the icing room'! zarinah and sri made my cake after which we sat at the adjoined cafe and celebrated my birthday! eeeek! so nice! hehe!! loadsa of crapping, camwhoring and video-ing! home sweet home! i love my babes! no matter how much they bully me just cuz im the youngest! hahaha


thursday, fucking disaster.. dun wanna talk about it.. haiz.. anyways, thanx sher, kenny and joel for coming to find me! appreciate it alot! drove over to find weiwei too! chocs from joel from germany! yumyum! [and damn it! i lost my ezlink (with 20 bucks cash inside) card and m(phosis hp pouch! =(( keep losing stuff lately.. haiz.. ]

thanx to everyone who wished me! you guys made my day! =)


friday.. work and home.. sians..


saturday.. half day work.. then met up with sher and kenny at night for chilling! thanx sher for the pressie! now i noe why you needed the 10 pics! haaha! love you!!


sunday.. went to fetch big bro from jas's house! yay!! my new crumpler bag!! thanx nae! but aint gonna use it till later cuz i still have brand new bags that i bought from bkk but haven even use yet..


then went out with kin and wanyin.. window shopped around bugis and settled down and chilled at starbucks! the sun is crazy man!! macam suntanning session!! ugh! kin left to meet fendy.. and we were off to town.. can you believe there is no freaking bus to orchard!! like seriously! then me and wanyin being lazy ppl decided to cab down instead of walking back to the mrt station.. wahaha!! then shopped at ion and cine for her slippers and off for dinner.. sadly, no salmon sushi anywhere all thanx to the flights being disrupted thanx to iceland's volcano madness! poor wanyin.. so we settled for waraku.. omfg! pls ppl, dun try their spicy ramen promotion thingy cuz it sux majorly!! ugh!! at least i finished my meat.. wanyin din even finish hers at all.. haiz.. walkwak around 313 and off for home!


this week! monday.. work.. super sian.. haiz.. the moment te speaker for that lecture picks up the mike i automatically fall asleep.. sian.. during mini breaks head over to hafiza's side to chat with her and trisa.. haha.. always end up with loadsa of laughter and me about to fall off the stupid chair! sickening!


tuesday.. work again! thanx hafiza for the pressie!! loves it so so so much!! 100% handmade pouch with winnie the pooh! omg!! and she filled in the pouch with diff types of purple coloured sweets!! hahaha!! i noticed babe! thanx alot for the effort babe! its awesome! loves you!! muackz!


wednesday today... slept for a good 2 hours during lecture.. so bloody boring i tell you!! and it started raining + aircon! freaking cold.. decided to thaw outside and was sitting on the table with my jacket wrapped around me while kin went to the toilet.. suetmei and xueting walked by coming back from their shopping at 711.. and they tot i was sick! hahaha!! no girls,. i wasnt ill, just sick of listening to those lectures.. and i pee-ed like 5 times during the 2nd half of the work today.. so bloody cold..


on the way my bladder was super full!! needed to pee but kept controlling thinking i can just rush home to pee.. but waaa.. couldnt take it so dropped off opp far east.. rushed to royal plaza and relieved myself! gosh! and all these while i was still in my uniform! faints.. the nature's call overwhelms all other concerns man.. phew!


and home now.. bored.. watching my dramas and shows.. nicey! but i freaking hate the broken links.. ugh!


wanyin left for work on tuesday and will only be back after 11 days! take care of yourself and come back soon safe and sound k! have fun! =)
ps: take care of my precious!! hehe


ward allocations are going to be out by the end of this week hopefully.. really hoping i get into neonatal but i wun be surprised even if i dun.. haiz..




















i want to live a carefree life and just doing wad i like but i guess that wun be possible anymore cuz of the burden of this huge responsibility and committment.. reality sux!

















-stop __________________ , when you dun even make the effort to meet up with frens but you keep repeating the same stuff over and over again.. its irks me everytime i see it..

-if you cant help urself, no one else can.. stop being selfish and think about the ppl who are hurting because of you! i think its time for you to grow up and to stop being like as if the entire world owes you..

there is only one way to describe my birthday, painful.. very very very painful..

its farnie how i can feel the love from my frens but not from my own family!! reading all the wishes after such a bad bad day breaks my heart and sends tears rolling down my face! thanx darlings! yes hafiza, im a real softie!



everyone wished me a happy birthday, but my family gave me a very very very sad birthday! its one of my lousiest birthday! you noe wad makes me sad.. cuz i feel like my family dun even care half of wad my frens does! you noe how much i wanted a family dinner! is it that hard to just sit down and have dinner together.. nvm.. next time, i dun even want to celebrate my future birthdays! in the future, every 22th april will remind of this day! thanx my beloved family!


an awesome dinner with loads of chatting, a camera filled with candid pictures and a smile upon my face.. thats all i asked for today.. and yet i couldnt get wad i want.. thanx mum for the pressie thou!























outside im smiling but inside im breaking, real bad..
and the tears cant stop falling...

april started off with a bad bad note and its been getting ever since.. hehe!! everyday is a happening day with loadsa fun joy and laughter just like how i like it to be! so yay!!

yay! yesterday was an awesome awesome day!! hehe!!

friday night.. mum and i couldnt sleep so we decided to go to mustafa for some shopping and supper at the makan place near there.. wahahaha.. left at 12.30 am and only back at 4am! awesomeness!! ahahaha!!

saturday aka yesterday!! awesome awesome awesome day!! 6c primary school class gathering!! totally awesome!! only 18ppl came but we still had so much fun!! ehe..

met up with sher, kenny and hongleng first to prepare the stuff.. dexter and fazi were the first to arrive and slowly ppl start trickling in.. hehe.. i started the fire and the wind was doing an awesome job in keeping the fire going!! hehe!! then gabriel came and helped me out with the fire and the bbq.. we were the 2 to man the bbq area right till the end and also with the help of benjamin, yc, dexter and the rest..

and we celebrated my birthday!! thanx sher!!! hehe!! happy cuz first time celebrate my birthday with the class!! wahaha!! still rmb last time in p6 ms yeong called me, benson and yingnan go to down to the staff room to take our exercise books up and felicia from 6d(who passed by our classroom and overheard ms yeong instructing the class) came to tell us that ms yeong told the class that it was my birthday and ask the class happy birthday song when we came back.. wahahahaha!! super farnie!! so yea! fun times!

then cont bbq-ing the food plus marchmallows.. nobody wanted to eat already so poor gabe tried to chow down the chicken wings.. he managed to clear 3/4 of it which eventually gave him a stomac upset at the end of the night.. poor thing.. haha..

bball-ed, cleaned up.. transported the remaining stuff to yc's house.. and yc sat my car for the very first time!!! wahahah!! finally!! super farnie! but after the ride he said he felt safe with me being te driver so its cool! hahahaha.. we couldnt stop laughing!! finally the ego man steps down and accepts a car ride from a girl! hahaha

then the remaining 12 of us split into 3 cars.. actually its 1 car, 1van and 1 lorry.. hahaha.. to kenny house for mahjong and cards session.. played till like 12++ then the final remaining 10 of us went for supper at bukit timah.. yumyum! hehe!! awesome fun man!!

then off for home.. i supp to send those gng to lakeside home while kenny send those who gng je.. but farnie cuz innchiat chased up after me and said that since he gng lim chu kang he sent them off then i can go home! haha.. so went home after the guys dropped off and switched to innchiat's car..

felt too happy so din feel sleepy.. hahaha.. just find it so nice to have a gathering after 8yrs and yet we dun really feel like awkward with one another.. def still have abit of awkwardness lahx but we cn still like talk crap make stupid jokes and dun feel shy in bullying one another and stuff!! loadsa stupid convos and lame talk!! and benjamin really made me laugh with all his random qs just to start a conversation!! hahahaha!! eg, so wads ur state now, so when you getting married, are you a christian.. hmm!! nice starting of convo lines ben!! hahahaha couldnt stop disturbing about it! hahaha!! awesome nice pleasant day! hehe..

finally went to bed at 4.30am.. but woke up at 9.30am.. 5hours of sleep where got enuf!! roll of my bed and lay on the floor.. just nice my big pooh oso on the floor so it acted as my pillow!! wahahaha!!

went to jb with mum.. she wanted to bring me on a shopping spree for my birthday.. small bro joined us after we fully woke up.. sad part, nothing for me to shop so like sians.. then she keep asking me to buy things but really nothing tat i like.. haiz.. end up i found 2 water bottles that i like and she readily bought them for me!hahahaha!! then she say "you can open water bottle flea market oso" cuz the last time i bought 2 water bottles oso.. and i still haven use one of it.. haha.. then saw one bumble bee winnie the pooh that was pretty cute but abit too ex! 100riggit for a softie is crazy.. but mum and small bro bought me a smaller version which they saw in another shop as part of my birthday pressie! yay!! hehe!! bumble bee winnie the pooh!! and i bought a rainbow pencil case!! woohoo!! loving it! =D

then more random shopping like for notebooks and bookmarks and stuff.. haha.. super tired.. lack of sleep.. finally back home.. i need to rest!!

starting work tmr! cant believe it!! omg!! im officially starting work!! im going to be a working adult!! and like wd the rest said yest, im gng to be the only one with a fixed income!! OMFG!! and i haven even prepare my stuff yet.. so gonna hate the tests coming my way soon man.. and i badly need to revert back to normal sleeping pattern.. no more sleeping at 4am and waking up at 12noon.. back to bed by 11 and wake up at 6 for the next 3 weeks at least!! how can!! i dun even feel sleepy b4 2am.. haiz..


good luck to everyone starting work tmr!!! i cant believe this is happening to us already!! we are going to start work!!omg!!

=))

thank you sweet stranger! =D

yesterday was an awesome awesome day!!



rina, cheryl, meita and i went for our little road trip!! hehe!! super fun!!



rina and cheryl met me at my house bus stop and we drove to pump petrol, buy snacks and subway sandwiches.. then off to marina barrage to meet meita for our kiteflying cum picnic.. dn fly a kite in the end cuz the kites were ex and plus there were wayyyyyyyyy too many kites in the sky! hahaaafter loadsa camwhoring, playing with shadows, eating our subways and tidbits and playing water, we left for chinatown for dessert!! hehe..



dessert at the usual dessert place where i and kin will go sometimes after work.. yumyum.. but very crowded thou.. managed to find a seat.. ate cheryl's cupcakes while waiting for our dessert.. yum yum!! walked to ansiang hill for the little bookshop cafes ut they were closed so we went to henderson waves to chill instead!! HTHT + gossip sessions and loadsa crapping!! i likey!! hehe..



like wad rina said, its farnie how we formed a clique like 3 yrs after sec school.. we were not a group in the first place and we all linked to each other individually thru cca and stuff.. but now we are our own little group.. haha.. farnie how things turn out dont they! that the frens you hung out with in sec school arent the frens that you are with hanging out now.. life changes and ppl change and even thou a part of me is sad tat some frens are forgotten, im happy that a precious bunch are not! so yay! hehe!!

on a separate note, I LOST MY WATCH!!!! and im so so so sad about it.. haiz.. firstly im sad cuz i lost my NEW WATCH!! secondly im sad cuz, i can NV EVER EVER get back that watch cuz its one of a kind that i bought it bangkok!! its handmade and they dun make 2 of the same watch!! omg.. haiz.. saddening..

thousands of thoughts running through my mind and none makes sense.. dun even noe how to describe it.. haiz.. im not worried about anything neither am i feeling troubled but yet for a few days now, this nagging thoughts in my mind, queasy feeling in my tummy and a heavy heart.. doesnt make any freaking sense.. is it cuz im too bored.. but still ok lehx.. i still have stuff to do but haiz.. hate it freaking hate it.. i hate having thoughts.. i hate thinking about thinking about thoughts that makes no sense.. my mind is one overactive organ.. how i wish i could hibernate my mind and thoughts.. weird things going on that doesnt make any sense at all.. and it makes me mentally tired.. veryveryvery tired..

anyways, today accompanied sher for lunch and then met rina in town for card making material shopping at wheelock.. and since we have nv been to the 1-4 floors in ion, we decided to walk walk.. quite nice.. l like that scrapbook shop and the bookshop at the top floors.. those floor are oso nice cuz of the peace.. lesser ppl so more quiet.. stoned at the nice comfy seats on the 2nd floor.. loadsa LAME jokes by rina!! i swear the jokes were so lame, she and kin could have been fighting for the 1st position of who was being the lamest.. ahaha.. dinnered at the coffeeshop below my house and went sticker shopping again.. wanted to send her home but bro was using the car.. and 963 took like bloody long to come.. hahaha.. poor rina!!

stupid small bro anyhow go tell dad that i just came back from clubbing.. bloody ridiculous!! and i was at home at 8pm can.. ppl go to clubs in the middle of the night!! not go and come back at 8!! omg.. bloody ridiculous.. and because of that huge row between me and dad.. all for nothing.. at first i just kept quiet thinking that my dad is stupid enuf to believe my bro.. kept scolding and shouting at me! well thanx!! for all that scolding and shouting when i din even do anything.. thanx! ALOT!! why cant adults get their facts right b4 they start scolding innocent ppl..

cant wait for saturday.. marina barrage!! woohoo!! better go and study the map first!! so dun wish to get lost.. haiz..

a smile is just a facet.. look beyond it..

reminds me of the "scoop" game on ger's itouch that we always play and try to break each other's records!! hehe