i really really didnt want to cry! but every single year you guys make me! why why why?? why cant you ppl just leave me alone!

and now you make it sound like its my mistake! ya ok thanx! i get it! the fact that i was born is my mistake! the fact that i was born into this family is my mistake! everything is MY FUCKING MISTAKE! happy!!

thanx huh.. just thanx! you ppl nv understood me and nv will.. then dun blame me for the way i behave! thanx for hurting me time and again for the past 21 years of my fucked up life!

i had zero expectation from the start.. but even so, its gng into negativity.. i hate it hate it hate it! if you cant do anything for me, so be it.. i already noe it would be such which is why i din ask for anything.. so just stop ruining wadever happiness i have left inside of me! every single day is a torture cuz of you ppl.. but even that is my fault right! cuz wad is not? i really dunno!! i come home happy after having a great day out, and my mood totally changes the moment i step into the house..

i doubt that you will, but even if you go buy a new one and return it back, its nv gonna be the same again.. to you it may be nothing.. but to me its everything.. thats the diff between you and me..

seriously, just stop ruining everything for me! i really had enuf of everything!!

you cant do any shit for me but yet you do the one thing that told you SPECIFICALLY NOT TO DO!! thanx alot!! bloody fucked up loser! and thanx for ruining my happiness!

thank you poly girlies for such an awesome time tonight!! i had a blast and im sure you girls did too, considering the amount of fun you girls were having while bullying me! hahaha

wells, today started off with me meeting tracy for lunch! nice nice lunch at streets hk cafe at bpp.. farnie thing, they were playing korean hit songs in a hk cafe.. but then again, who is complaining! hahaha.. chatted about bands, friends, studies, work and everything in between.. nice simple lunch! jiayou trace!! meet you after your exams!! study hard!!

then off to grand cathay to catch "love and other impossible pursuits" with sher and ern.. pretty mundane movie.. but its filled with lotsa meaning.. just find her life very miserable.. and i hope mine wouldnt be like that at all! then shop shop walk walk..

and finally off to meet the girls! met kin, ester, ger and yt.. sam and bi were gng to be late(or so they told me! they were secretly preparing my birthday surprise!).. so after yt arrived and i went to pee, ester and ger threw the first bomb on me.. that i needed to be blindfolded.. ahhhhhh.. noooo.. whyyyy.. super embarrassing! but not wanting to spoil their plans, i just followed.. seriously.. i didnt noe where they were taking me.. i simply tot esplanade..

finally reached some place with live band.. and i sorta knew it was timbre.. hahaha.. havent been there b4 thou.. first time! fun fun fun! made to sit in my chair for the next 15 mins or so.. felt longer.. kinda got bored.. started stoning and ger shouted at me and ask me not to sleep!! hahaha. cuz it was nice and windy and i was blindfolded, so sleeping was like the next thing to do! finally got to remove my blindfold(which eventually was one of my bdae presents)! balloons! and sunflower!! and my very first key and its from fossil!! hehe thank you darlings!!

ate pizza, soup and bunch of other stuff..too full.. had to poop! hehe.. then soon after, i wasnt concentrating on wad was happening.. was zoning out into the surrounding.. and sam started nudging me! the band was doing a irthday song dedication for me!! oooooo!! worst part, they said "ROSYMAMA!!" ahhhhh!! wanted to dig a hole and hide! everyone was looking at me!! yikes!! thanx guys!! next time just stick to roshini or rosh alrights! hahaha. but it was fun lahx! and yummy banana crumble with vanilla icecream as cake! and more presents! i love my very first river island bag!! hehe didnt want to open it cuz its not my actual birthday yet.. but the rest of the girls haven see so ok lahx! haha.. told the girls my mum is gonna hate you girls and they tot wad happened.. and i told them, cuz its another bag to my collection! and they simply said, "tell ur mummy its branded!!" hahahaha! and when i reached home mum was like "haiyo bag again ahh!!" and told her "msg from the girls: AUNTIE! ITS BRANDED!" hahahahaha!!!! and the card is simple and lovely!

really really thank you girls! i was expecting a very simple sit down and chat and tok nonsense dinner but you girls made it a surprise! thank you thank you!! and trust me, i had such a hard time getting on and off the bus on the way home! thank god for a rather empty bus! hehe..

jiaqian and eve jie! it would have been even better if you girls were there!! you owe me bdae hugs!! hehe

first bdae celebration a blast! hoping the rest will be too!! hehe =))