its 4.15 AM and im blogging.. yes im psycho.. nothing new there! haha..

today(ok technically yesterday) was sgh DnD! and its was fun cuz of urobabes!! reached late cuz i left house late to fetch the kin,ester,joey and yt.. had to uturn back to my house cuzi forgot to bring the invitation card.. damns.. so yea.. uber lahx.. reached at like 7.. shittttss..

but i had so much fun camwhoring with the sharan, dee, izzati, hani, umi, alma, dyne, joyce, marlene, kim, nelson, rommel!! i swear.. the girls are crazy.. its so hard to take a solo pic with any one of the girls cuz the rest of the girls will chiong into the picture.. but it was crazily fun.. hahaha.. nelson took hold of my camera and happily camwhoring as well!!hahaha.. total craziness! seriously, i think the programme was abit boring, the food sucked BIG TIME(come on man, its RWS!! supp to have standard!!) and our waiter guy is like totally....-pukes blood-.. but oh wells, the company was AWESOME so it makes up for the loss!!

toilets are one of the best places to meet old frens.. so happy to meet all my crazy old frens.. met xueting in the toilet, and i suddenly miss my prcp gang.. damn!! i miss the whole gang of us going out for dinner!! hahaha.. there was like a moshpit sorta thing(seriously, the mc is pretty good to get the crowd going mans..) towards the end and it was so fun!! urobabes were screaming their lungs away.. hahaha.. and when i turned, i saw rouzel!!!!! ahhhhhh.. uber happy!!! she is my all time fav EN and i love her to bits! big fat kiss from her!! hahaha..

then went for mini photo taking session with vic, angie and boss and a big fat kiss from vic too.. ahhhhh.. i miss 6-ers soooo much!! i demand a meetup!! asap!! muackz muackz!!

alot of ppl left early.. last ones left were me, izzati, kim, jaafar, wirda and husband, shuqin and kid.. so gave everyone a lift to mrt station then me and izzati went to liang court to meet umi and hani for a little while plus ice cream.. and finally home sweet home at 2.30am! im shagged out..

suayness of the day-staining my dress.. damn shit!! lucky i noticed it early so quickly went to wash it off and sharan helped me dry my dress using the hand dryer.. seriously shits mans.. always end up staining on impt days.. ugh!!

wanted to msg bgbf b4 i left house but i was in such a rush that it completely slipped off my mind.. and yay!! so happy to receive a msg from you!! i love you bestie! hurry come back.. i miss you!! seriously, its a good thing you wun be gng overseas to study(for now).. wad am i gng to do mans.. 2 more days!

and i miss hnin pwin phyu!!! we all major miss you snow!! one more week b4 you come back! next time dun go back home during DnD period.. you miss out on alot of fun my dear! and you are like totally uncontactable lahx!! i tot myanmar can FB?? rarrrr.. we need a major gossip session with the babes once you are back i swear.. you are too outdated by just 5 days..

and bi is coming back too on monday!! so yay!! we can finally start planning for the games for ester.. seriously, we were supp to do the planning while she was gone, but wad bull, no one had the time... hahaha.. so bo pian..

so much planning to do.. gotta plan for xmas outings, birthdays to come, class outings, prcp gang outing, urobabes outing and uro+mot babes outing(which has been pending for damn long).. ahhhh.. im gng crazy..

but for now, i shall head for my bed!

nights world! or rather good morning world!

bad week at work, worse week at home!

seriously fucked up! and nae, i noe you will be seeing my blog so im telling now!! be happy if ur ship/plane wadever gets delayed in coming back home.. cuz there is no joy in being at home anyways.. you come home and all you will feel like is leaving this damned place! so take ur time.. no need to rush coming back..

say all you want cuz i have given up.. given up long long long ago.. you keep saying i create drama when my frens call home looking for me when im actually with them.. are u freaking outta ur mind!! why on earth will they call you if im already with them.. you think i only hang out with one person is it.. thats prob you not me.. cuz you live a sad miserable live.. and thats wy you are not happy when my life is awesome and thats only awesome when im NOT AT HOME!! cuz life is miserable at home! not a day of peace! and who are those fucking assholes who report my whereabouts to you.. if they have got the fucking guts to tell tales then they should jolly well come say hi when they see me! you call me ask me where i am, i tell you where am i.. you ask me who am i with, i tell you who i am with.. you ask me wad time am i coming back, i tell you that i will be late.. simple as that.. and most of the time wad i say its true.. why the hell would i say im in town when im not or vice versa.. and i very willingy stay out that late cuz i noe i have got so many buses that till get me home asap from all the places im usually at! if i noe transportation is going to be a problem, i come home to get the car or i leave from wherever i am early! im not stupid you noe! i do noe wad im doing!! im not a 5yr old kid! im 20! i earn my own living and i can do wadever i want!

you say my frens are bad just cuz im not home most of the time.. you noe why i dread coming home.. you think im really not tired after work! i tell you! the reason i go out even thou im fucking tired is cuz i dun want to stay in this fucking house! i dun want to stay at a place where i can scolded and blamed and shouted at for doing nothing! i dun even mind overtiming at work just so i can come home late.. this is my sad fucking life that has become like that cuz of you 2! you blame my frens.. you say they will backstab me and i will suffer one day cuz of all these ppl.. well you noe wad.. im happy to say that i haven felt betrayed by my frens b4.. and if one day, should i get betrayed then so be it.. cuz ive still got a bunch of other ppl i trust and can enjoy myself with.. all the dirty and crude things you sae reflect your fucked up thoughts that you have of your own daughter! which i must say are rather pathetic.. i talk back and you sae someone taught me to sae all these.. no one taught me.. oh no.. you 2 did.. you 2 taught me how to talk crudely rudely cuz thats wad i see and hear as i grew up.. you sae i have changed.. no i havent.. its called growing up.. its called fighting for urself.. its called knowing wads right from wrong.. its called justice.. you compare me and other indian girls.. sorry to say.. so now you think of urself as indians! wtf is wrong with you! one moment when you hate indians youre not and when you feel like it you are? your race doesnt change wad you are! you compare me with my cousin sisters.. one moment you complain about them, the next you are praising them.. one moment you dissing your family members, the next you are toking to themon the phone like they are ur best friends! wad nonsense.. at least i dun talk to a person i dun like and pretend as if we are frens just cuz you can get juicy gossip about the others! wad the hell is wrong with you.. is this wad all housewifes do?? and all this freaking godly fucking shit, save it for urself! i gave up on god cuz of you 2! if god really exist, all these shit wouldnt be happening.. you talk bad about other ppl but have you taken a look at urself and wad you are! you talk so well of my frens one moment and when you are pissed you talk bad about them! i dun even to say anything, even little bro sees it and comments on it! that proves how fucking screwed up you are! hypocritical and contradictory! i dun even understand how can one person sae all these things about ppl that barely noe! and sae more bad things about their own daughter.. and you noe, i wun leave this house.. why should i.. u tell me to jump down.. sorry to say.. i dun think that will ever happen cuz its a painful death and im scared of pain.. sooo nahh.. that aint an option.. you say that im going to be the next one to slashed.. well you noe wad, i cant wait!! then maybe at least i will be in peace not having to face all these anymore.. you noe why i dun really care or feel scared about all these slashings? cuz you can protect yourself as much as you want, but you nv noe wads going to happen the next moment.. you rush home cuz you scared you will kenna slashed but then guess wad happens.. as you are rushing and crossing the road, you get knocked down and die on the way.. so is it worthwhile? thats why i dun really care.. its no point.. they say when one door closes and another opens.. same thing.. as much as you try to run from death, death will surely find another way to get you.. its no point running..

my pt yesterday.. this 22 yr old fella.. he is paraplegic(paralysed from waist down).. and i was thinking prob born with it or kenna accident or something like that.. but no.. he was a normal kid.. when he was 9, he sat down.. and could nv get up after that.. drs couldnt say why either.. life is like that! shit happens! but you gotta keep moving on! so thats why i cant be bothered with wadever you say.. im going to do wadever makes me happy.. i dun care! cuz why should i, when i can just die the next moment..

i have managed to suppress and tahan all these bloody shit for 20 years of my horrible life and i will cont doing so just cuz i want to see how long more you can go..

im not a typical stupid girl who listens to everything you sae.. ive got my own brain and i can do my own thinking! i dun need someone else to work my brains for me..

last and final week of AL was over last week.. sadly.. no more AL left till feb 2011.. haiz..

first day of AL was spent shopping and pedicure and movie session with BGBF! awesomeness! yay! bought shoes and cardigan! yay!! hehe.. watched life as we know it.. not bad pretty nice! i love catherine hiegl! hot stuff! hehe.. dinnered at Hans fried rice is awesome man! yumyum!

monday, sher came over to my house after her driving to rot! hehe.. i love a boring day spent in my boring house with my boring(oops) bestie! hahaha we just rotted at home.. and its awesome! i din feel like gng out and neither did she so yay! haha..

tuesday, went to the bank to run errands.. and then realised wrong bank! damn it!! stupid me! ugh! then sent duchess to her doggie hotel.. back home.. showered stoned and off to msia.. stayed at bukit bintang for one nite.. i like it there.. but sucky hotel thou.. lucky only one night.. but other than nice place.. i likey! then off to genting.. boring.. seriously, one more time gng there with family, and i might as well kill myself! super bored!! seriously.. every single time i go i run out of things to do and end up spending more time in the hotel room and watching lousy tv programs.. bored as shit.. deepavali was sucky! like major sucky.. well wads new.. i would rather have stayed at home in sg seriously.. haiz..

finally back home.. couldnt wait to come back home.. yes ah!

back at work today.. super sian.. screwed up work day thanx to some ppl..


person1: runs off to squeeze her precious breast milk just when the theatre starts getting busy! woman!! im not saying you can go pump! just dun do it when everyone is busy!! dude, you are the senior in the theatre!! seriously, be responsible! ugh!! somemore dun let me go for break when you noe my case is gng to take like super long! but when the 12-9 come to relieve, you zoom out for ur break! totally selfish and irresponsible! urgghhh!! while you were happily sitting on ur ass in front of the computer(and there we were thinking you were doing the OTM, which we realised NOT when we checked! stupid!!), we were running around trying to solve the problem!!

person2: stupid surgeon ask if me and dee are classmates and when we replied “no” and asks again, “then why you girls so close” =.=! dude, same batchgirls always tend to stick together one wad.. stupid! you and lewis oso very close.. whole day talk cock! same with girls lahx! and yes, the 5 of us are really damn close! much to the envy of many of the other staff in ot.. too bad..

person3: idiotic surgeon who keeps shouting at us! from case 1 till case 4.. urgh!! damn it! lucky for me, he din really shout at me but just keep nagging at me why i din check my equipment.. excuse me, you have been using the same ultrasound machine, same handpiece, same probe for the previous 2 cases this morning, then how come during my turn then all spoil.. suction tubing changed, probe changed, even the handpiece oso changed… everything changed but problem still exist! so it aint my fault and this he knows which was why he finally gave up and decided to bring in the pt again on wed..

person4: STOP STEALING MY FREAKING PENS AND THOSE WHICH I GIVE TO MY UROBABES!! seriously!! you can freaking two-time ur BFs but you got no time to buy urself a stupid pen!! bitch! (when snow told me this morning, she was afraid that i will get pissed off and made me promise her that i wun get angry.. the moment she told me about the pen, she din even have to say who and i mentioned the person first! stupid bitch!! seriously! the one thing i hate, is ppl using my pen[or my fren's in this case] without my permission!!)

person5: stupid anaesthetist mo who think he is damn farnie but is getting on the nerves of the au nurses.. gosh! somebody! pls go tell him to shut it.. he confuses the nurses and the pts!

so far i have only met one of the 4 new uro MOs.. eve and snow say he is not bad and nice and then snow said "maybe they are new thats why they are nice now.. wait a while longer and their horns will start coming out" hahaha!! true that!

cant wait to meet sam bi and jovy for movie tmr, dinner with poly girlies on wed, jianning's 21st on friday, roadtrip with rina and girls on sat and sun got something on but i cant rmb wad.. yay!! i like a schedule filled week!! that reminds me, i need to get a schedule book real soon! damn it!

and DnD theme is not out yet!! hurry can!! if not got nothing to wear! haiz..





i hope to have a dreamless nite tonight and the nights to come and an awesome day at work for the remaining of this week! =)