i feel so fucking cheated now.. like super duper duper fucking cheated.. and im super upset with myself..

im the kind of person who thinks of everything in a postive way.. i always think that someone is nice first even thou i dun really noe them.. and when they behave otherwise i noe they are not the kind of person i tot they were.. i guess i really was too gullible..

i dunno how to say it but all i noe is that i feel so bloody cheated.. like wad i explained to the girls and my parents.. i still dun get it. i still dun understand.. and after meeting with the lady of the car.. and after settling everything she says that one thing that makes me feel so cheated.. which pretty much makes me know that my thots were right afterall.. kept talking to mum about how cheated and sad i felt.. throughout the entire bus journey, there was only one thot and the most common word that came out from my mouth was "chated cheated cheated".. came home and the first thing dad told me was that " i think you just got cheated" and like a lightbulb that went off in my mind, the words "fuck! i just knew it!" popped up..

mum consoled me by saying nvm, if they really cheat you, they will get retribution and somehow or other you will get more money in return.. but you noe, thats not why im upset.. yes.. money of cuz makes me sad, but the fact that they cheated me when i thot they were nice ppl, thats wad upsets me..

i have almost nv been cheated.. im trust ppl easily and i guess that was wad led me to this.. i tot every person is a good person.. and thats how i see ppl.. i dun like to see ppl in the bad way.. im not cautious enuff against ppl.. but i guess thats how simple minded and naive i am.. cuz that aint the truth.. ppl can be nasty and scheming in the face of money and pushing the blame.. and this case, ppl can seem nice and still be nasty and scheming all the more being evil ppl.. why are there such ppl? why cant everyone be just nice and happy ppl.. why why why??

but thats me.. is that going to change after this incident.. i dunno.. but i def dun want to become one of those evil ppl.. im not scheming enuf.. im not cautious enuf.. i guess im just too nice.. good or bad.. i dunno.. but thats me..














thanx alot.. for making me feel so cheated.. thanx....... alot